The face of a broken man
Tyler and Josh getting “X” tattoos LIVE on the LC outdoor stage (not a close view but excellent audio).
Josh rarely has a mic to talk into at shows so I really enjoyed hearing him getting the chances to share his thoughts and stories
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Putting an engineering degree to good use
here i am. alive.
Hmmm…. for shorter Bucky-deals-with-surly-Steve: here. This comic ran away from me, so I’m just posting it as is instead of doing more work on it.
mcu!Bucky is actually pretty well-off, if you go by the flashback in Cap2: he has both parents, his parents have a car, and he is impeccably dressed. That snide comment about Steve shining his shoes just serves to underscore the class difference between them. I *love* all of the fanfic headcanons where Steve and Bucky are scrappy rascals who grew up on the streets, but I got to thinking: if Bucky was that much better off than Steve, how would they even meet? Why would Bucky, who is so charismatic in all the ways that pre-serum!Steve is not, even want to hang out with Steve?
So my new headcanon is that while Bucky’s a product of an interfaith marriage, at a time where a Catholic marrying a Jew would burn a lot of bridges. Maybe how Bucky and Steve met was in a public elementary school, where kids were bullying Bucky for bringing matzoh to school during Passover, and Steve’s the only one who stood up for him. For middle school, Bucky’s dad enrolled him in a Catholic school for the better education, and Bucky’s method of coping with that sense of not-belonging is playing the class clown. Meanwhile, Steve isn’t smart enough to not pick fights in *his* middle school.
Speaking of which, Steve. Even though he is at heart a pure and good person, that doesn’t mean he’s not flawed. Steve’s way of coping with things is to push people aside. He has rather prickly front, especially when he’s feeling defensive (like in the Avengers where he snipes at Tony, despite actually agreeing with him.) And the very line about hating bullies makes it too easy for Steve himself to define the enemy.
So this comic starts out with Steve being surly and Bucky being cavalier, but they work through it. Because only Steve can see through Bucky’s front, and vice versa.
Oh hey I repurposed the “end of the line” thing to be happier. I guess it’s compensation for making “on your left" be super depressing.
Also, relevant Great Depression video: (go to minute 41 for some nice soup lines and talking about how it was an issue of pride…. no wonder Steve’s so surly in the line.)
this comic basically sums up most of my bucky headcanon (relatively wealthy, interfaith marriage), but I always imagined the two of them meeting like in the first avenger tie in comic: steve stands up for an even smaller kid getting bullied, gets hit but stands back up again, and bucky sees them and joins in (in the comic it actually has bucky saying that bucky never would have stood up to the bullies on his own but steve inspired him). bucky then offers to take steve home to take care of his bloody nose and soon-to-be gorgeous shiner and by the time he’s cleaned up the two are friends. super meet-cute, establishes a pattern, etc.
I think a lot of the headcanon regarding bucky being dirt poor like steve comes from marvel’s own carelessness towards continuity (big case in point: in the smithsonian exhibit two different years are given for bucky’s birth—in the same panel). in a catfa interview sebstan said that the two were orphans together so that’s what they were going with while filming the first film. in the above-mentioned quasicanonical tie-in comic, steve’s mum dies when steve is young (under 10) and he and bucky meet near steve’s orphanage…in hell’s kitchen, manhattan. bucky’s family situation is never mentioned but I got the impression he himself was not in the orphanage. in catws it’s established that steve’s mum died when he was at least old enough to be allowed by authorities to be on his own (I’d guess 16 or older, would have to do research. I saw a post that dated the scene to 1936 or 1938 based on bucky’s suit. god I love historians), and bucky’s parents are both obviously still alive and he’s pretty well off.
basically pick what you like and headcanon it because you’ve obviously given it more thought than marvel.
sorry for piling on this post I just have a lot of better off jewish bucky feels and in a fandom full of dirt poor, probably delinquent bucky (which is obviously a valid interpretation that I do love to read about) it’s lovely to see others who share some of the same ideas.
ugh I want to talk about by-the-rules barnes and steve the shit stirrer who bucky has to rescue soemtimes, and bucky being smart and well off enough to go to university probably but if he left he knew that steve wouldn’t make it on his own, and yeah he could be an engineer or something but there are a billion engineers out there and steve’s art is really good, (you will pry artist steve out of my cold dead hands), and so bucky makes the choice he made when they first met and that he will make over and over again for the rest of his life:, protect steve, crying about bucky barnes,
Hey! Firstly, for some reason people are reblogging this again??? And re-reading it for the first time in 2+ months, it’s … not as horrible as I remembered? (phew.)
But thanks for clearing up the confusing signals that Marvel has been sending about Bucky’s childhood. I’m far enough entrenched in my personal headcanon that I feel comfortable ignoring most of the mixed mcu messages. (And yes I’ve seen the exact post you were talking about re: Steve’s mom dying in 1938 b/c Bucky’s tie is the wide kind.) And reading poor (and/or orphan) Bucky doesn’t turn me off of a fic. (If it did, I’d be out of fics to read!) It’s just that I think it’s more interesting if Bucky is well-off, in a happy family with siblings, and *yet* still chooses to hang out with Steve for some reason — that there’s something about their relationship that Bucky can’t find elsewhere. I think part of it is that Bucky sees in Steve a drive and conviction that he personally lacks (and feels vulnerable about). But not only does Steve sees that in Bucky and accepts is, he interprets Bucky’s lack of direction as what it truly is: an overwhelming kindness towards others. (It’s really something that drove the Bucky my Cost of Living fic.) But yeah, the reason why it’s been 4 months and I’m still stuck thinking about Stucky is all the myriad ways they complement each other.
Re: your tags — UGH THE FEELS. And Artist Steve is really important to me, too! (Hence my 2 comics). Bucky trying so hard to get Steve into art school is SO IMPORTANT to me. He has to convince Steve that it’s worth it— you should really put that portfolio together and apply, no, don’t worry about the money, here’s a list of schools nearby, really steve can you stop rejecting help for 1 minute? And when it finally works — the war hits and suddenly Steve’s running around trying to enlist and Bucky’s like OTL why.
do not think about your crush in an old sweatshirt with scruffy hair and a sleepy smile ok dont think about them humming to themselves as they make breakfast in this attire ok dont think about how the light hits them as they sit down across from you and eat breakfast ok just dONT
I put a smiley fry in the microwave so next time my mom goes to make something she gets a pleasant yet unpleasant surprise
do you ever see a person you used to be friends with and you’re like “glad i got the fuck outta that one”